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Old Feb 04, 2018, 01:08 PM
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Originally Posted by TishaBuv View Post
TBH though, I did try to leave and get divorced. I did try to hop to another man. Had the man been a better person to go to, I’d have probably gone.

Why this BS of feeling I needed a man to go with? I admit that’s not being a modern politically correct woman. I’m terrified of doing it alone. I’ve never been alone.

My sister left her h for another man who helped her get out with 3 young kids. They are also married unhappily ever after.

Ugh. Is there any right solution?
That was my problem. I knew my relationship was bad and unhealthy, but I stayed. Why? Because I was afraid of giving up, because I was afraid of being alone. Because I didn't want to face my own shortcomings in our relationship.

What finally did get me out was when a friend was telling me her own story of abuse with her husband and I felt so terrible for her, that she did not deserve that. And I had this aha moment that it was not okay for me either.
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