I walk everyday - I guess I’m just tired of paying people (therapist) to listen to me. It’s degrading and not very satisfying. I’m having my arm operated on next week and I hired somebody just to show up for a few days afterwards. It just beats you down that nobody is close enough for you to rely on. This my friend has always been the case. Thing is I’m pretty comfortable with myself - until something happens where having somebody around would make life bearable. I hate being such a downer and I realize that I sound like I’m paralyzed but I’m tired and scraping what’s left at the bottom of the jar.....