Thanks for sharing some of your innermost thoughts during your process of coming to terms with BP.
You write very well and some of your thoughts brought me back to when I was first being diagnosed and treated by a pdoc, along with how I'd felt about it. Like you, I'd needed the help; yet, wondered what it would bring about in my life.
You are courageous to take this step, to ask for help. I also think you are very wise to seek an intervention before BP rears its head and forces things upon you. At least now you have some choices.
Thanks again for sharing!

WC