pink, i don't know there can be a solution at all... but certainly any solution will be much harder until you have the meds worked out. You have bee through the wringer with meds, give yourself and your T a bit of credit... i mean, how can you gain emotional consistency when the meds are constantly beating on you?

i don't know what will work med-wise, i hope it eases up because i firmly believe we can't swim strong enough to battle the current of our hearts along with the current of our minds (ie the meds).

you know my plan... i'm going to go med-free for a while. Not recommending it to anyone but i'm throwing it out there. After 2 1/2 yrs with T, perhaps the two of you can find non-med means of coping...?? i'm just thinking you are a different person than 2 1/2 yrs ago, maybe you can do it differently. i dunno... i just want to take it all away for you