I guess either my mind wants more drama or there's something I have to process.

I had a dream last week about someone in high school. He sent me a PM on FB a few years ago. I answered him and he never wrote back.

This dream has been bugging me and now I know why. He rejected me. So now I'm dealing with feelings of rejection because of something that happened while I was a teenager.

And my life now is great. I have a loving husband and daughter. I'm enjoying what I'm doing. I really have no need for this.

My husband is enjoying the extra hugs and kisses, but it's not for the right reason. I want to get over this "I need you to love me all the time" feeling, because it's annoying and painful for me.

Stupid BPD.

Guess some distraction and self-soothing will help. So would radical acceptance.