I just learned I have no psychiatrist. I called to find out the time of my appointment only to be told my pdoc isn't seeing patients anymore. I just OD'd on Thursday night... Was sent home by the hospital afterwards with a pill to sleep the night away, and I just started DBT. I have no real DBT skills under my belt yet. I feel so ****ing worthless.

I'm calling my GP in the morning to make an appointment asap because I desperately need a med change. They are doing nothing for me and are costing me a fortune as they aren't covered, and I am not working as BPD has been too debilitating lately. I don't know how I'm going to get a med change with no psychiatrist though unless they put me inpatient for the change. But the hospital, like I said, rejected me as it's 'not helpful to admit patients with BPD'.

Feeling so low, so hopeless and worthless. Wanting to SH... But I have failed my therapist already this week. What if he gives up on me? What's to stop me from repeating the events of the past week.