I'm so depressed. My girlfriend hasn't been over in about a month due to her mother, and she just turned me down for coming over again. Earlier she said maybe, but now gave me an excuse. Her mother has been trying to drive a wedge between us, saying I make her daughter depressed by pushing my sadness on her.

I love her so much, and it hurts very badly to be kept away from her so long. I've not felt so depressed like this in my life. I normally have major depression, anxiety, and other problems, but this has me feeling horribly sad.

I almost feel like dying. Giving up. It hurts so much. I feel like I wanna end this sadness... not that I probably have the courage to even try.

I'm sorry if I sound overdramatic... I just feel like this.