My friend of 20 some years passed very suddenly... and of course I am not dealing with it well...

I feel enormous grief.... and yes anger....

she passed from the effects of an eating disorder...

and.. yes.. I also have one.....

and... yes... I tried so hard to help..

a beautiful wonderful person gone.. in a heartbeat...

and people shrug.. and say "what a shame"...

and I want to scream... and say.. where were you.. why would you not help me... help me to commit her.. where were you doctor.. why did you not involuntary commit her..

I can't stand the pain... of the loss... that did not need to happen...