I'm sorry you are going through such a difficult time. I can understand how people can dissapoint you, and the pain of abandonment and lonliness is so hard. Remember there are those who love you. We here care about you. Feel free to message any of us anytime. Also remember, that even though your pastor retired, that he gave you something lasting inside you. Something that would stay with you when your gone. Use his encouragement and your faith to pull you through.

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