Hello All,

I am a 30 yrs old woman married for 12 long years .5 yrs ago I met my childhood sweetheart who was in deep depression then for breaking up with his girlfriend..I thought of staying beside him to give me some mental support...its all my fault by doing that I went into a relationship with him..somehow I was lonely at that point as my husband was busy with his work pressure but never neglected me though.....because of my stupidity I went through a lot of abuse, insult and depression in this relationship with this boy..All I found out that the person I thought that he still loves me is a NARCISSIST...he cant love anyone.. he has no empathy ..he only used me as a source of love supplies...he said he never went to Brothels as it let down his dignity but still he can stay up of 1 hr in bed while he claimed that he had no sex for last 6 months !!! Still He can unbutton bra in mili seconds !!! ........ from all these happenings I ended up believing that he is a Big Fat Liar... he had sex may b 100 times in 6 months ans fooled me like anything.......Today I cant face myself anymore...I was the lady who was always honest to his husband but somehow got involved in this emotional lust trap.....I want to save my relationship with my husband thats why I didn't tell him anything...m absorbing all the pain inside me and seeking strength from God.......I blocked that dickhead from everywhere so that he cant reach me ever in life....but I feel so restless cant console my body n soul to get over with this.....he exploited me used me and I couldnt do anything......how would I console myself ? Plz help me