for me testing my treatment providers is not about missing sessions not following my treatment plan... to me testing my therapist means pushing them to their limits. my therapist and I have this way of pushing each other that ends up in a debate. it will start out me coming into the session in a bad mood. she will say something and I will say back something like what do you care have you ever.... and we will continue pushing at each other.... oh you think that compares to..... on and on until either of us reaches our boundary line, when she hits her boundary line I give the issue that one push over the line, she ends the session with ok that's it out see you week. and out the door I go. the next week comes and we talk about why I just had to push her to that boundary line and over, what was going on with me that made me want to see her pushed out of her comfort zone/ professional boundary line like that.

nope no simple skip a session or dont take my meds for me, for one thing that doesnt test my treatment providers, that just does harm to me and affects me, Im the one that would be out that money for the missed session, i would be the one that was having the mental and physical health symptoms due to missed med. nope I go for the things that will actually test/ affect my treatment provider