I'm confused about how I feel. I went a solid year very engaged and focused on my T. He is very clever, and original, and really lavished attention on my case as he started up his practice here. Now, it is like that feeling before a break up happens in real life. The romance is gone, or the romanticizing. Partly that is bc he is way busier now, partly it is bc trauma work is a painful slog more than it is self discovery right now, and party I see a more realistic picture of a very well trained and insightful T who is also kind of dismissive if challenged. It is like StopDog's quotation that the customer is always wrong.