I'm "normal" and feel I've lost myself. I hardly talk to anyone including my family. Unless I'm telling someone they need to do something. I'm a *****. I hate it. I would go off my meds but then no one will listen to me. It's not like they listen to me now but if I'm noncompliance the insurance may take my meds away. Even my therapist hated me. My husband said I'm not that bad but I really am. I have no idea how to change me.