For what its worth everyone thinks I'm nuts. Though they are nice enough to call it eccentric. Lol. But I'm still loved and accepted as is.

I understand where you are coming from. I've had the same thoughts at times. At the end of the day though, you gotta do you. You can't be perfect all the time bipolar or not. If the bipolar shows through, that is okay too. It'd part of who you are and nothing to be ashamed of. Hugs.