Hi. I had depression 2 years ago. It lasted 6 months but I was suicidal, crying myself to sleep and totally miserable. Since then it's only come back once, for a month. But something just happened that could make it come back fast. Im not gonna say what it is. Just, I really ****ed up. Over one big f-up, I feel like taking some money and running away (don't know where to), or jumping in front of a car tomorrow. It's not as big of q f-up as it probably seems, but I just lost a hell of a lot of my parents trust. Why do I all of a sudden feel like jumping in front of a car? I feel like I could do it tomorrow. I haven't felt depressed in a while, so to suddenly feel suicidal is very dangerous and not at all healthy. I feel like I am in a dangerous state right now. I can't imagine tearing apart their lives if I die but at the same time I just feel an urge to jump. Over one thing! What the hell?!