I don't think I test my therapist. At least not that I am aware of.
I don't expect anything of her except for her to do what I expect of her in her job... that is to listen, to not judge, to know stuff about dissociation and have similar treatment goals to mine, and to be there for the duration of our agreed upon session times.
I don't... expect bonding. I don't expect she will be loyal to me. I am definitely not saying those are "wrong" things to expect. I think it is healthier to expect something of the those sorts. But I don't. I don't think I would want to test boundaries because I -
Well I guess I don't think she would care what happens to me one way or the other. I don't mean that in a "poor me" kind of way. She owes me nothing.