I feel this way often. I even told this to my T and he replied "Well, I don't think you're broken"

It's a long process for some people, it isn't magic. Hang in there, find a friend or two, find some hobbies or things to distract yourself with and you will be ok, I promise

Do you like animals? If you do, get a pet if you don't have one, they can be such incredible help for healing and finding a purpose... but you can always volunteer with a rescue to walk dogs or something if not. So many people on this forum are here to support you, we would not do that if we also believed you could not be fixed