Yep it sure is Prefab . Others can't seem to see I'm gone yet ? Was talking to a guy the other day , he's like " in 18 months we want to start a new project , we're hoping you'd run it " .. he's saying the usual stuff " low cost operation " , I'm thinking uhuh , you don't have enough money to do it right . "Small well trained teams" ..uhuh , not enough people to do the job . "A complex ore body" ...uhuh , if you want the gold you have to compromise safety .
So anyway , I hear myself speaking " sounds interesting , too far away to commit , but would be interested in hearing about it " and my mind is yelling " are you crazy !, you don't want me , I'm shot through the gut , I'll crack and let you down " .
I cracked 2.5 years ago . The hairline cracks started probably 10 years ago I can see now . But then it came to a head . So I took 6 months off , just held it together long enough to see out my notice . Thought the break would have sorted me . So took the lead at my current mine , done 2 years there now and knew from day one I was still gone . I think it would feel like showing cowardice in the face of the enemy ..it would feel the same as that . I don't trust myself anymore . So yeah , give it away at 54 , maybe 55 if some things don't turn out . Thought I would do some thing after that to help animals .. volunteer or run a small low overhead not for profit thing . Fully finance myself , not expect anyone to cover my cost . We'll see.
Prefab Sprout .. English group yeah . My wife was into them when I met her as a 19 year old on hols in oz . Got detained by the police twice the day I met her for fighting and then apparently drinking in the wrong place ..cities . Chased her half way across the world and did a couple of years tunnelling in the North of the UK till I convinced her to come live in the desert with me . People would say , we aren't sure if she really likes you or is just hanging around to see what crazy thing your going to do next the only perfect thing I've ever met in my life . The last lap..yep , then freedom .