The not sleeping, racing thoughts and now depression on top of it has finally broken me down. I can't take it. I've been stable for awhile and I feel like a failure. My husband doesn't get it so I have to pretend to be ok. My insides are going at sound breaking speed, I can't sit still, I'm overly angry and irritated and I'm tired but I'm not. I feel like ripping my skin off. I hate feeling this way and my pdoc will not return my call about not being able to sleep. I want to scream at everybody. I am so messed up.