Hi. I hope you're doing better. I can't properly relate, since I don't have kids, but I did grow up in a home of 8 siblings. When I was 17, all I wanted was to do whatever I wanted. The only way my mother successfully reached out to me was only by being there, listening to me without judgement, trying to counsel me the best she could. Fear of judgement was one of the things I feared the most from my family. I wish you well, and know you're not alone.