I can relate to all of this!
It wasn't too long ago that I was feeling like there really wasn't a "me" just parts shifting forward to do what needed to be done.
I can relate to feeling "part-y" too. It feels, to me, like not being completely forward. Sometimes it really feels like I'm in passenger mode maybe 60% "me" and 40% another part. I've also been stunned, internally, to listen as a conversation comes out of my mouth and I'm wondering where that came from.
I'm not sure about my different parts actually talking to each other. I do know that there is caring and compassion from older parts for the younger parts. They do have opinions that are voiced in my session time with my counselor and that comes very easy.
I haven't really thought about the communication between them before, I don't think. It feels like more of an awareness of each other between them.
There is a 12 year old part that has become an encourager for the younger parts and that comes as a feeling or understanding rather than words. Maybe that is considered communication.
Back to "who is out" mine seems to be who is more up front, and how far back am I?
The part-y feeling is a weird one. I DO feel like "me" but (I'm a hand talker) as I'm talking my hands don't look like they are mine. That is a signal to me that I'm not ALL me at that point.
Journaling, as Kecanoe described, has helped me a great deal. Sometimes I'm surprised what I have written when I go back and read it. It is a big help!
Someone posted something on another thread about it being like a car and who is in the driver seat, with passengers in different places in the vehicle. I can relate to that analogy easily. The front passenger seat is the optimal place to be if I'm not in the driver's seat! The back seat isn't too comfortable and there have been those times that I've wound up in the trunk. That's not the best place to be. It takes me a while to get out of there!
I shared that because it kind of helps me understand the layering of parts at one time.
Hope that wasn't too much rambling.
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