Sadandalone, Do not let what others tell you that you are not trying, even if it is your T. If you choose to get up and face another day then you are trying, and that is working on getting better. It sounds like your T is playing words games with you. Sometimes they do that trying to encourage you, anyway you need to encourage yourself and know you are trying and you need to keep trying taking one day one miniute one feeling sometimes one breath at a time that is all you can do and that is trying and it is also working on getting well, it is what we all do in our journey to getting well. Be good to yourself try every day to say something good to yourself or tell yourself something positive and good about yourself, it's what I try to do.
Hope maybe this helps you.