Like I said, I didn't put much consideration towards you and your state of mind, making what I said 'rude' if I don't say so my self. You deserve better. This is no doubt troubling you and possibly affecting the people around you which is why (and correct me if I'm wrong) the typical self loathing that follows by any misunderstandings that have arisen from the past experiences when dealing with what you're going through. So yeah, I'm sorry but I'm trying my best to not piss people off. This site is perfect for learning how to break life long habits that bring more agony than joy. So in all seriousness I wish you nothing but the best.

Steve