Then I just read my own article on my blog, How to be Happy Single.

I gotta take my own advice....

Thing is, I have friends, I have hobbies, I have goals and dreams. I have a social life. I have a girlfriend that I see every once in a while for dinner. I have two other girlfriends that I get together with from time to time. I have a lot of acquaintances and a small circle of closer friends. I talk to my friends almost daily. I get out at least 3-4 times a week.

I could use more girlfriends in my life nonetheless, and I could use more activities I suppose. I could diversify my activities other than seeing live music, but that is what I most love to do.

I suppose I just need to sit with this emptiness I feel. It does not help that Valentines day is around the corner and that I just broke up with someone! (tears)

I hate Valentines day when I am single. It is the worst! It also doesn't help that at this time last year, I was with my ex fiance, going out for an expensive, beautiful dinner at a fine restaurant (that I paid for! HA!).

I say in my article to date yourself.... so this year, I will date myself somehow. Or maybe I'll get together with my best guy friend for Valentines.... I feel like I have to do SOMETHING or else I will sit at home, crying by myself. (more tears).

I don't want to feel sorry for myself... but this is hard.... this is really really hard for me right now.



But that emptiness is there.