Yeah, me too. Only tempted though. Best outcome is to get over this obsession rather than induldge it and look at why you fall so quickly in love for what other people would view as an infatuation. There's a confusion there.

You are already writing that it is causing you tremendous pain (in the title of this thread it's more than you can take).

Well, if something is causing tremendous pain, a good outcome might be to stop going in that direction. It is a warning sign.