Feel like crap this morning. I can't even look in the mirror to shave. I couldn't look in the mirror before or after my appointments yesterday. I've been awake less than 30 minutes, but I'm usually up two hours by now. I've been crying all night again. It really sucks to cry in your sleep. My dreams were my crying as a little kid. Appropriate.
My daughter chose yesterday to message me. I'd left her alone after her last series of angry messages. I did have a conversation with her and let her know something that would help with financial aid if she ever decides to go to school or Just Please do anything with her life. She chose then because she was mad at her mom again. That seems to be when she decides it's time to message me. That made all this mess feel worse.
I wanted to go to the gym after the appointments yesterday. But, the closer I got to the gym, the less I felt like going in. I turned at the road before the entrance and drove back to my parents' and stayed alone. I tried yet again to just have a conversation but I couldn't do it more than 30 seconds.