I am spent. You are very correct. I don't feel safe anywhere, so where do I go to feel safe? The gym is usually my safe place but I don't want to be around people. I'll stay under my blanket for now. I truthfully am on the edge and I'm looking down, though that doesn't scare me. I lived here, perched on the edge of the end for almost my entire life. There's no going over it right now, because I've made progress, a LOT of progress. There is something deep within me that says "not yet."