@LT Is it possible you're pulling away from your T because he won't give you the intense connection you crave? I mean, I'm not saying this is the case, but what we want isn't always what we need. Just be careful that if you switch to seeing someone else, your own motivations are clear. It could be that this T can't give you what you need, or it could be that what you want isn't actually in your best interests (like if it's a replacement for MC). If you do switch, do you think it might be helpful to try another female T? I know you don't feel like you connected very well or were helped much by ex-T, but it seems like seeing male T's might be a distraction for you.