T, I'm nervous about the possible outcome of a medical test I need to go in for. One of the possible results was just never on my radar. I don't know what to think. Except to want you. I wish you could go with me. But I know you would say you can't. I hate 2018 so far. I'm trying so hard to be positive and mindful but the stresses already this month.... do I really need another right now? Why, t? What did I do?

Ok I'm calling to schedule the test. I have to face this and deal. Maybe it's not what I fear.