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Originally Posted by unaluna
(((LT))) some meandering thoughts: Exactly how do you define attachment? I tend to hear it as, "When i say jump, you say how high." That is DEFINITELY from my raising up, if we can even call it that. But that is also the feeling i got from the football phone call, and kinda from the end of your session, where you kinda compulsively ask "is attachment okay?" Its like you just want him to follow a script and say yes, but when he doesnt, it opens a door for you to start your weekend process, which is to email for extra contact. What if you just went to two sessions a week "permanently"? Or even for a couple of months. Without having to do the "special" thing to get the second session.
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Thanks, Una--Your question on "how do you define attachment" makes me think...I wonder if it's possible my T and I are defining "attachment" in different ways? Like when I say "attachment" he's thinking of something different than I am? Might be something to address in an hour...
That's an interesting question about whether I could do 2 sessions a week for a period of time...I think part of why I'm struggling right now, too, is that I'm used to seeing MC one day a week and then T (whether current or ex-T) the other...so I'm used to seeing some sort of therapist 2 days a week. Now that's suddenly down to 1 for most weeks...plus I'm dealing with pulling away from MC.
I think the thing with the script is...I was used to MC just telling me everything I shared or felt was OK. That any amount of contact was OK. So I think it's like I'm conditioned to want that from T...when that's not how he operates. Plus, I mean...clearly it wasn't actually all OK with MC. Which...maybe that's where some of this is coming from, too. MC told me it was OK, then it wasn't. So if T won't even say it's OK...then what does *that* mean? (Maybe that he's just being honest and not making promises he doesn't know that he can keep, like MC's "I won't abandon you.")