I find this interesting. I don't always want to quit. Like I have this "just in case" I am feeling like I need it.

But there are reasons for wanting to quit. Like what do you say when someone asks what has happened to your arm, or your wrist etc. The hardest part is when my kids ask where I got "those marks from".

People can be so cruel. On the holidays I had a horrible experience. My bf's sister inlaw totally attacked me. I was glad that I was not there at the time or I would have smacked her. She was talking horribly about my SI and making me into this monster. She said all of this in front of my bf's parents and worst of all, her kids. I get along well with her kids. It makes me so angry for her to shoot off her ignorent mouth in regards to SI.

One other big reason would be not to have to look at it everyday. Its like a constant reminder that I hurt myself. I wish I could afford to have this "fixed" through surgery. When I look at it, I feel like a failure.

I started to cut the other night but stopped. Just a couple minor cuts, nothing more. What made me stop?? Not sure...

Justy