I.. am....so.....****ing.....weird. I need to not be me because I am really odd. It makes me hate who I am. I put my real self out there, I pull back. This continues over and over. I am at a point where I'm not seeing any reason why I should continue to try to put myself out there. I need to hide within me. I can't be me because I'm too weird. I like weird things. I post weird things. I say things irl and no one ever replies. I might just be hopeless. I had two sessions this week and you would think I would feel stable. I am going through a crisis of self. I have to keep reminding myself to be quiet. Because if I'm not there are negative ramifications. I hate social anxiety, it causes me to be in pain on a daily basis. I try to post here, and I feel awkward and like I don't fit in. I am curious as to why I keep on going. ugh. I don't make sense right now.