Clozaril is considered to be the antipsychotic of last resort. It works when nothing else will. On the other hand it can have dangerous side effects--so much so that FDA decided to pull it off the market. There was so much push back from doctors and patients that they finally agreed to keep it available but with much monitoring and a whole lot of black box warnings. If you *can* get by with something safer then you should. If not then that, of course, is your own choice.

As far as your doctor's office goes they sound like incompetent idiots and they're making everything even worse than it needs to be. If no one else will prescribe clozaril to you and you think you need it then that's another choice you need to make. DO NOT GO OFF CLOZARIL WITHOUT SOMETHING TO REPLACE IT.