Food and I have a love/hate relationship. I do cook when I'm feeling trapped. It just gives me an objective. I clean for the same reason.

Today has been even harder than normal. I had therapy and just felt worse afterward (which isn't normal). Tomorrow is my birthday which isn't helping my mood at all. It's also a bad anniversary day for me. I'm only celebrating because my mom wants to, and I don't have the heart to deny it from her.

I think I'm just going to take my meds and go to sleep. I don't want to be awake.