I think alcohol was a factor in helping my "problems" to germinate. Because of the alcohol my erections were unreliable, and could never orgasm. Because of this performance anxiety reared its ugly head. Then after years of not found anything my brain convinced me I just couldn't have.

Now, after working with the surrogate I can orgasm at times, but more importantly I became confident that I could please my partner at least digitally or orally. Considering my difficulty at touching the surrogate at first, I am so pleased to now give my partner orgasms each time. I am like a diffidrrent person now. These skills have moved into my personal life.

As for marijuana, I have tried CBD but it hasan't haf much effect yet. But I was at a low CBD dose. I plan to get a higher CBD concentrate next time with a small amount of THC. I want to find the strengths to get loose and relaxed, but not too high. Too much THC would likely send me into an high anxiety state.

At least in Calfornia I can legally experiment. But with the price of cialis and marijuana I may not be able to afford the intimate pleasures.