Actually it's not that she doesn't "give a darn" but YOUR BEHAVIOR caused her to HAVE TO set up a boundry to keep you at a distance because she would not be willing to show any caring toward you because it would only end up ENCOURAGING your BAD BEHAVIOR all over again. You FORCED her to react the way she does to you because she doesnt want to deal with your behaviors toward her & the only way to do that is to block ANY of her own behaviors that might be taken by you as encouragement to behave again in the SAME bad & wrong way.

She is NOT the bad guy in this situation. YOU are the one who has created the situation that has caused her to react the way she is toward you. Your Behavior is the TOTAL PROBLEM in this situation & you seem to still not want to take full responsibility for that when trying to figure out if her behavior makes her a horrible person.

The only thing horrible in this situation has been your behavior. YOU ARE NOT A HORRIBLE PERSON EITHER. You are just making some REALLY BAD choices in how you interface with ither people. Whether this is yiyr ASD or not...you need some serious good therapy to help you learn what is & isn't appropriate behaviors or you will continue to go through life creating situations that cause people to grow to dislike you as they get to know you because of your behavior & put up boyndaries to keep you away rather than to have to deal with behaviors that make them feel unsafe or bad or annoyed.

Stop placing the blame on others & start owning your own responsibility for what is happening in your life.