My therapist is also my psychiatrist, he gives me prazosin and write the medical reports I need to give to the social services.... I have complex PTSD.

Though, I hate talking to him, he makes me feel much worse to the point I miss 1-2 days in bed after seeing him. He knows, I have told him several time, but I am seeing him through the public health system and there is not another available therapist\psychiatrist.

I see him since two years and the only thing It has been helpful it is prazosin I convinced him to give me.

He focuses too much on my past while I am much more interested on improving my future. When I told him something about my present or future academic issues he ignores it and change the topic to something related to me past. I would like he helped me to build my future instead of diging inside my head to see my past. Last time he asked me what type of sexual abuse I endured and if it was severe.
I have told him all these, but he doesn't seem to get it, I am tired after two years; when I explain him how upset i am about the situation he tells me it is like everything he does is wrong, he said he has made a great effort giving me prazosin, an off label med here and he is trying to help me but "nothing is enough for you". I think I burned him out since I am not comfortable with him and he makes me worse, but both of us know that there is not another option unless I stop needing medical reports and prazosin. I have told him I really hated I was sent to him after my ex therapist moved to another place.

I was so comfortable with my ex therapist, but he moved to another city, I was only three months with him but he helped much more than my actual therapist.

Prazosin makes me functional, I will try to convince my GP to give it to me, today I see her. About the social service, I get some money to live because I am considered disabled that's why I need to give them a medical report twice a year, and I don't have any family or friends.

I need to find a weekend or night job to be able to live without the money I am given because of the disability so I wouldn't need the medical reports anymore. The problem it is I live in Spain and there is a lot of unemployment and I am studying pharmacy at college.

I feel so lonely and dispaired because who are supposed to help me cannot do it right and my last therapist didhelped me but he had to leave, so i know the problem is not me but my actual therapist is not the right one. I don't tell him my important problems anymore, even if they are severe like feeling suicidal.