I know how you feel. It's like screaming into the abyss sometimes. You really must find it hard to cope when nobody is paying much attention. I feel the same way. It's all an uphill battle with the higher powers in our lives, but you will find you can achieve limited minor success from time to time too. That's what I try to focus on. Because 23 bad days being followed up by 3 good days makes all the difference. But, yes. It's a bit crap when the depression creeps back again.