This is never a good thing. If you do this, you could end up in the ICU like i did, several times, then to a psy ward, if you are lucky. If not you could end up in a coma for years, and the pain to your loved ones. They wouldwonder why, and if they could have done anything to have stopped you. The guilt that they would carry for the rest of there lives, might trigger them to do the same. Just give things time, and talk with people on here. Try to get professional help. If you have a T already, and it isn't working, ask for another. And please keep talking to anyone who will listen. We here will listen, and maybe you will find people that can relate to your presonal issues, but please keep trying.