If you asked him though, he'd say it was never an LTR, because he never asked or accepted me as a girlfriend, pretty open about the fact that he wanted to keep dating and all, so, how stupid am I?
He has always been open and up front about the fact we'll never be anything serious because we live so far away, and other facts, meanwhile, with me feeling like I can't date, like I can't move on, even though I've tried, I feel emotionally tied to him, and that I can't have another relationship at the same time. I am just a boring old monogamous type.
We only get to see each other face to face maybe 2 times a year. And this has been going on for almost 7. Not that he's counting. As a matter of fact, I've never told him most of my feelings, and when I do he seems like it's a little inconvenient. In between seeing each other. we talk a lot, we keep a friendship that has become important to me, we know each other very well.
When we see each other though it isn't all wine and roses because we know each other so well, we tease each other and carry on like we're old friends.
So, for all this time I've pretty much carried this torch for him, and held this dream that I would someday move closer to him. And one thing has never led to another - I've never been able to make it happen, and I feel like more and more of a loser. And a dimwit for carrying this unrequited love for him when he's done nothing, really, except be a good friend and care for me, and give me emotional support when I needed it.
Go ahead, people, tell me how I should move on, tell me how I'm a loser. I know it already.
What I wish you could tell me though, is how DO I do this? Lets say I can push this thing where it belongs, and lets say I do try dating again, do I tell him? Do I make an announcement? What?