You built more of a life in your head with him than it really is. Logically, you do know that he’s just a long distance friend and you heard him when he said it will never be more. But you dreamed, hoped, pined. What you think you are in love with is the him that you dream he is together with you, but that guy doesn’t exist. When you get together, there isn’t even that chemistry, you are really just more friends.

You put your life on hold, didn’t date anyone else, thinking you just want him.

Did you do that because you are actually terrified of a real life relationship?