i did too night before last. smoked crack after 3 months staying off of it. then when its gone its such an awful feeling i get into my klonopins to bring me back down to normal & i have to cut my usual dose for a few days so i dont run out early. ive found the worst thing is good shame & toxic shame. good shame is looking at the whole picture & making a plan & moving forward despite the relapse. toxic shame is beating yourself up with guilt & addicts tend to just gravitate back to the alcohol & drugs if u allow yourself to stay in that rut. ive battled alcohol & drugs even had a 5 year period of sobriety from 25-30 but went back to that hideous dark place of addiction. like being in prison. if i take a drink i cant quit without help i get the shakes hear things that arent there the minute my feet hit the floor in the morning i have to have a drink. its all a lie from Satan from the pit of Hell!!!