This is my last say here on this.....

Wanted to say that Alexandra gets it- thank you Alexandra.

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1) One could dispute whether number of posts / financial support etc is an appropriate measure of how one does or does not support PC.
2) One could dispute whether being acknoweledged as a supporter of PC is a reliable indicator of a poster supporting others.


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EXACTLY!

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I am questioning whether being acknowledged as a supportive member of this site is likely to be a RELIABLE INDICATOR of whether one is likely to be supportive to others. This seems to be an assumption, and I'm not at all sure that this is something that we should merely assume.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> YES, I did think that I WAS a supportive person....... but I just don't rate ...... all of the sudden I'm back, a little girl, with the "golden" sister-- telling me I'm a loser, no one will ever want to be my friend, I'm an outsider.

get over it, you say?-- argh!! why don't those get over being afraid of thunder storms, or getting that drop in ones stomach when someone snickers at them for their weight, or get over the triggers that one feels when they read about childporn...... get over it--- yeah, anyone that would think that here would be a hypocrite!

I'm done here..........

I thank those that understand and have been supportive to me in my struggles. This is just not the place for me when I have to "jump through hoops" to be recognized.... when there are secret forums for those that "belong".

I've tried, I've tried so hard.......... now to be reminded every time I sign in...... it isn't fair, I can't do this.....

Zorah... you are so right: </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
have any of you considered that some of us get so little validation in our lives that even a little marker thingy at PC is an achievement ?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> and when one doesn't get any recognition.....

Thank you to those that have been kind to me. I have always appreciated you. And thank you docjohn for letting me belong someplace for awhile......
I just can't ignore the pain anymore........

mandy