goldeneye..your spirits seemed to have lifted since the origination of your post..it looks good on you..keep growing and you are young..47 is not old...I'm 53 going thru a breakup..it is scary and dissappointing..but every break up at every age was like this...

I'm also told I have to love myself by therapist..I don't want to..I want someone to do that for me...But I do understand because the more I am alone with myself..the more I learn about myself...

I hope you someday look back and say...ah...I get why I had to wait...