Today I feel heartbroken as I sit and write this. It has been over two months since the death of my beloved angel. (I wrote a post about her: https://forums.psychcentral.com/grie...ow-i-feel.html)

Still, the community she left behind - loved ones, friends, family, relatives, co-workers - carries on and moves forward to find justice.

I still can't believe any of this happened. I've dreamt of her, but it's not the same. I can still hear her voice, see her beautiful face and smile, feel her hugs. It's all very much still here with me. I can't bring myself to face the reality that she has crossed into another life. I've always believed there is life beyond death, but the pain of losing my friend still stings.

I talked to an investigator a few weeks ago. I sent him some of the last texts I ever received from her, which made me relive everything over again. I was shaken up and distraught after that phone call. I hope that this man gets locked away for life and finds the help he needs to cope with his mental health. It is a heartbreaking, painful process but I hope that my friend knows that we will be her voice.

I miss her so much I can't even describe it. I miss her, I miss her. I love her. She was such a good friend to me. My life will never be the same. Thank you for reading - even though I'm anonymous.