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or because you can't feel his caring sustaining you? Or is it too hard to be mad at someone you care about so you have to not care about them?

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It's the first one. I am still not able to internalize his caring, the connection, or anything.

I actually just called The Ghost and left a message that I wanted to touch base with him before session tomorrow. For the first time this whole week, I feel like I want/need him... so I reached out. I want to make sure he's still there.