I re-read my post and damn I must have sounded like such a narcassistic asshole myself, and here you are trying to avoid that!! I don't know, I am just really in a good place, (despite the constant reminder of bipolar knocking on my brain), and it really took A LOT to get to this place. I know where you are, and what you're going through, I mean I can literally see myself in every one of your posts. Just the circular pattern that has haunted both of us for so many years. All I can say is that if there is hope for me, (coming a place of desperation, alcohol dependancy and total low-self esteem), there is hope for you too.

Like I said I am always rooting for you, and I will continue to be your cheerleader!


Honestly, the only reason I am even going out on Valentine's Day is because I have a reassessment appointment with my psychiatrist. The irony is, if I were to be re-evaluated on my mental health on Valentine's Day years ago, GOD, the outcome would have been, pills, pills, pills, hospitalization, and "let's get that girl some help!" It's amazing how far you can come, on a journey even when it was littered with painful moments.

So, I am going to make a day of it, and treat myself. A night on the town, with confidence as my date, and yummy dinner for two (for one). Ha!

So I wish you the best with your couch and TV shows, if you can surf around all the lovey dovey nonsense, (although some of it isn't bad), and have an awesome Valentine's Day yourself! (Oh, an idea for a good show is Mad Men, it was one of the most incredible shows I have seen in a long time).