I have posted on this before but I would like to reiterate what’s going on with me and how it may help you. I was abandoned by my whole family. No friends.
I had no one. I had to learn to live alone , by myself and with myself for the first time in 50 years. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced. I was at the edge of the cliff many times. Somehow I managed to survive. It was a time where I had only myself to deal with. But through finding out about mindfulness on you tube I began to just think in the moment. That’s what saved me.
Constantly thinking about the past and how I was hurt and lonely filled every moment of every day. Then the opportunity arised where I was able to get back what I lost. I ran back to the same people that abandoned me , because I felt so alone. Well things have not worked out so well since. I stopped working my mindfulness. I found out that while I was progressing they were the same.
Nobody has ever apologized for abandoning me and that’s eating at my heart.
I’m still depressed and still feel alone.
So what’s the moral of this whole story ?
Being “ alone” ain’t that bad. You have a chance to find out who you really are.
Because those distractions are not there. Also be careful what you wish for ,
you just might get it ! Best to you always