Session yesterday... (just as a background my panic disorder has not been great lately) so when t finally came and got me I was on the edge of a panic attack. I told him that as soon as I sat down in his office. And the cbt in him came out a bit. He reassured me that it’s ok if I do have a panic attack, and then helped me get grounded by doing a quick guided relaxation exercise. It helped really well and I was able to not have a panic attack and even calm down enough to have a productive session.

He did challenge my logic about being in control and even said I had some twisted logic, when it comes to my need for control and it trumps my need to survive. It doesn’t make a whole lot of sense, and the comment stung a lot, but it has challenged me thinking a bit and that is what I need to do when I get stock in this cycle of irrational thinking with the panic disorder.

At the end I asked if he had any openings next week because I had been spacing my appointments out a bit lately. He didn’t have his computer up and running it so he asked for me to schedule at the front desk. I was surprised to find out I wasn’t scheduled for a good month(which is a mistake) and he was pretty much book solid. Thankfully we got it all worked out and I will see him next week.