Hi Scared101. Welcome to the forum.

Regardless of his drinking, look what it's doing to you. You are scared. You don't know when or if he is going to drink. Is this someone you want to spend the rest of your life with? Someone that you want to have children with? He doesn't think that he has a problem, therefore what you see now is what you have to look forward to. My 2 cents: He has a big problem and sounds like he's a bit of a narcissist as well. Saying that you are jealous that you can't drink and he can? What a jerk!